my ohh my

[Pure Sorrow]

my self-destruction has begun yet again
i havent slept in so long it isnt even funny
ive been swallowing glass
i tried to OD with as many pills as possible the other day
i tried to stab myself today
no one seems to notice or if they do they dont seem to really care
is it all in my head am i just crazy
i dont know how much longer im gonna last
i dont know how much longer ill even care if i do last.
soon ill just fade away remember me for how i once was and not for how i am.

[Rawr]

I sorry to hear that but please don't cause yourself harm..

[Pure Sorrow]

im sorry to say its way past that point kid

[Rawr]

I meant anymore...would you like to explain why your causing yourself harm?

[Pure Sorrow]

because ive grown tired of living i guess

[Rawr]

Then you really needs to re-think your life..... Give your life meaning go out there and live instead of slulking...try getting involved with friend, church, after school programs..something

[Pure Sorrow]

the thing is i am involved with a lot of stuff
my life isnt bad
im just tired of living
i havent been happy in a year now i feel alone and cold i dont want to live and thats really the end of it

[TheMuffinMan]

killing yourself is pretty cool, guy, enjoy your 5 sentence paragraph in the local newspaper as the final acknowledgement of your existence, then enjoy everyone forgetting you.

[Pure Sorrow]

wouldnt be to bad of an idea
everyone forgetting anways huh
and i dont work that way i have no heart it wont effect me

[Rawr]

No suicide is never the answer..

[Pure Sorrow]

why exactly not? everyone always says its so bad but what is really so bad about it

[Rosey]

Honestly, commiting suicide is the most selfish act you can do if you think about it =/

There are plently of people out there who would love to live. Embrace your life, you just have to change your perspecitve.

AND DONT MAKE ME COME TO YOUR HOUSE MISTER AND *****SLAP YOU D<

[TheMuffinMan]

why exactly not? everyone always says its so bad but what is really so bad about it

lol i dunno either, it's like taking a vacation, from life!

and vacations are boss

[Pure Sorrow]

then those who wish to live can have my life if they really want it,
i dont really have a perspective i just dont want to be alive anymore.

[Rainshine]

then those who wish to live can have my life if they really want it,
i dont really have a perspective i just dont want to be alive anymore.

What Rosey meant to say was that it's a selfish act because you're taking yourself away from those who love you.

[Rosey]

What Rosey meant to say was that it's a selfish act because you're taking yourself away from those who love you.

^ Interprets my post correctly =D

Theres always someone out there who is going to miss you, and quite honestly, to put them through that pain and grief just because you were bored with life is ya know...pretty selfish .-.

[Spunk Ransom (:]

^ Interprets my post correctly =D

Theres always someone out there who is going to miss you, and quite honestly, to put them through that pain and grief just because you were bored with life is ya know...pretty selfish .-.

That is what I was thinking. But honestly, ending your life is, okay so it's just terrible. Your loved ones are going to miss you, and it will cause them pain. What you are going through right now, honestly you need to pray about it. I mean everyone is here for a reason. Maybe you should talk to someone you know you can trust or maybe a doctor even. They can give you advice and probably help in more ways I can. But please, pray about this situation.

[Pure Sorrow]

what part of nothing is wrong does nobody get, im not sad or anything so i dont really need to talk to anyone, and i dont really have any loved ones left so i dont really have to worry about that either.

[iwantedtoexplode]

You seriously need to get yourself professional help. I know that you said that your parents don't believe there's anything wrong with you, but my offer is still open:

http://www.kh-vids.net/showthread.php?t=57656

Read the last post in this thread.

[Spunk Ransom (:]

what part of nothing is wrong does nobody get, im not sad or anything so i dont really need to talk to anyone, and i dont really have any loved ones left so i dont really have to worry about that either.

Okay, as I said, really get some advice. I know you are saying that nothing is wrong, but something must be hurting you because you are feeling this way. Maybe you can't see it now, but maybe if you just sat down and talked with someone it would come out. Please just consider this.

[Forever Love]

Like the others said, you'll just be hurting anyone else who cares about you. And don't say nobody cares about you, because I know that there are numerous people out there, including on this site that care about you. Most likely everyone who's posting in this thread cares about you, and I'll admit I do, though I barely know you at all. Please don't consider this. It's really a bad idea, and though you think it'll make things better for yourself, all you really need is time. Things get better, trust me I know. Please don't take that road, because it'll abruptly come to an end. Just consider talking to someone, to us, to your family, anyone. Death is not a good option, and you should never think of taking your own life. It's really not the way to go. I know I'm being repetitive, but seriously...just don't. It gets better, I promise you. Take this from a girl who has experience.

D8

[ArchVice]

my self-destruction has begun yet again
i haven't slept in so long it isn't even funny
Ive been swallowing glass
i tried to OD with as many pills as possible the other day
i tried to stab myself today
no one seems to notice or if they do they don't seem to really care
is it all in my head am i just crazy
i don't know how much longer I'm gonna last
i don't know how much longer ill even care if i do last.
soon ill just fade away remember me for how i once was and not for how i am.

I really don't wish to see anything bad happen to anyone. Why don't you get some help and talk to someone. Like a psychiatrist or something. Everyone hits a low point at some time in their life. But taking the easy way out is not the way to go. I'm not going to sugar coat anything so don't expect sensitivity. These are things you need to hear because none of us are qualified you help you with this situation. That doesn't mean I don't care. I'm just saying you have options. Take care.

[Darkcloud]

You make it sound like your pain will end if you go down this path. I can honestly tell you: It won't. Whether you commit suicide or not do anything about your present situation, it will only get worse.

Have you tried talking to anyone about this? I mean, serious help?

[Heaven's Angel]

what part of nothing is wrong does nobody get, im not sad or anything so i dont really need to talk to anyone, and i dont really have any loved ones left so i dont really have to worry about that either.

I'd be sad if you died... =(

Seriously, suicide is never the answer... Every person exists on this planet for a reason, you just need to find it. You need to go out there and search for your "calling". Then you won't be bored. Try doing something new, like a new activity or hobby or something... Try meeting new people... Maybe fall in love if that will help. :)

Honestly, suicide is a horrible thing to do... Every life is more precious than anything that's ever existed anywhere, and it'd be dumb to just throw it away when you can do something with it... You may not know it, but there really ARE people out there who care about you, me being one of them. Would you REALLY put people through that grief and suffering just because you're bored?

[ArchVice]

You make it sound like your pain will end if you go down this path. I can honestly tell you: It won't. Whether you commit suicide or not do anything about your present situation, it will only get worse.

Have you tried talking to anyone about this? I mean, serious help?

See what I mean? Facts are facts and we really want you to get help.

[TheMuffinMan]

http://i36.tinypic.com/2ptb2ag.jpg

[Repliku]

Really, I'm not understanding why you are bothering to hurt yourself and not find something better to do with your time. Do you feel that you just don't feel many emotions or positive things in your life and you do this because it makes you feel something?

You aren't giving reasons as to what exactly is wrong with your life other than you are bored with it so it's just a casual thing you can toss aside. No one can really help you to live since you are asking only what's wrong with suicide and you aren't caring about their answers.

What's wrong with it is this.
- It's a selfish act. - you are taking your life and tossing it away and others do care about you and would mourn and not get your decision at all.
- Suicide is an end to boredom, sure, but it's also -the end-. There is so much to see and do in life and we only have so few years to do them in. Why hurry up the process of taking off more years before it's really your time to go?
- There's more to life than just living at home and doing projects etc. You miss out on the fun and yet simple things that are worthwhile to experience.

What is going on in your life that makes you want to harm yourself particularly? Do you hate yourself? Are things around you just feeling meaningless and repetitive? Give us something more to go on with your personality please? At this point though, I think that you may need to actually seek out some professional help to see if they can help you find things to go on with in your life so that it's not just cast aside and you can get the most out of it. There is more to see and do and I'd hate to see you throw the life you have away or keep injuring yourself so that your health fails and life really does get all the more pointless and agitating for you. Please consider your health in all of this and that you could seriously screw yourself up and then change your mind about death being such a wanted thing but it will be too late. A psychiatrist may help you since your attitude seems displaced and you really do have other things to live for and do. Death comes for us all and that is a fact. Don't be so in a hurry to go there when you haven't seen all life has to offer. If you can't see those benefits and enjoy the life you have while you do have it, that suggests you do need more assistance than we can give you.

[Catch the Rain]

Dude I thought things were getting better for you? :/

You promised me once that you wouldn't do anything like that.

Suicide is beyond selfish and you know that dude.

I know you're dealing with a lot and that everything feels really ****ed up in your head, but please, keep fighting. MAKE people listen to you, because you need help.

I know the last few therapists you have had have been **** as hell, but don't give up.

I know you, and you don't give up.

[Pure Sorrow]

rain...the truth is..i gave up a long time ago i gave up before i even came here...its only now showing i guess

[iwantedtoexplode]

rain...the truth is..i gave up a long time ago i gave up before i even came here...its only now showing i guess

You haven't given up, because if you had, you wouldn't be asking for help. We are willing to help you, but we need more information from you.

Even if you believe that you're beyond help, just tell us what's going on, anyway. You don't have anything to lose by doing that.

[Pure Sorrow]

i feel alone
i feel like no one is ther nor will there ever be someone there
other than that i dont feel anything anymore

[Chevalier]

hey cheer up little dude!


you are not alone.

even though it may seem that way.

you are not alone.

and even though you think life feels wrong, you must remember that

your pain WILL come to pass.

trust me , eventually it will, but if you want it to change faster, then you can't sit around, crying ,waiting.


you have to stop pondering on the bad things in life.

[ArchVice]

Things will get better if just reach out and get help. It's not too late. There are people who care about what happens to you. I'm one of them. Even though I have never mey you and I don't talk to you here, I STILL CARE! If a total stranger will take the time to devote a piece of his heart to you, then you should have enough courage to get the help you need. After you take that step, things WILL get better.

[Darkcloud]

Let's try this from another angle; maybe then we can understand you better:

How long, exactly, have you felt this way? How long in a particular point in time?

[Pure Sorrow]

ive always felt alone,
ive never really felt whole
i gave up a long time ago
its only now taking effect

[Spunk Ransom (:]

ive always felt alone,
ive never really felt whole
i gave up a long time ago
its only now taking effect

I hope you don't mind me asking, but are you a religious person?

[Pure Sorrow]

no im the opposite

[Spunk Ransom (:]

no im the opposite

Okay, I see. Well, I honestly think that you might be missing God in your life. I have heard many stories about how He fills up a "hole" in people. And I would really like you to try asking God about your situation. It might sound like something bazaar to you, but that could be it. Just please give it a try. (:

[Catch the Rain]

rain...the truth is..i gave up a long time ago i gave up before i even came here...its only now showing i guess

i feel alone
i feel like no one is ther nor will there ever be someone there
other than that i dont feel anything anymore

ive always felt alone,
ive never really felt whole
i gave up a long time ago
its only now taking effect

...:\ that is BullSHIT and you know it.

I still remember when we first started talking, and I remember all of the times since, are you saying that they count for nothing? That I, and Sabby, and others like Burnitup, do we count as nothing? You are far from alone, you think you are the only one who has ever felt isolated or felt like giving up?

Hun, we all feel like that at times, but it is how we deal with it that distinguishes one person from another.

If you had given up you wouldn't have posted this, I know you and I know that you do not give up easily. You never have, remember all those times you went on and on at me to keep fighting and stay strong? Remember all those times when YOU helped ME get through all the ****, you always told me to keep doing.

Now you can damn well do the same. I believe in you and I know you can do this.

[Styx]

wouldnt be to bad of an idea
Let me get this straight. You're choosing a state of infinite options (yes, you heard me: infinite options) over a state with zero options left and you think that's "not too bad of an idea"?
*facepalm*

why exactly not? everyone always says its so bad but what is really so bad about it
Because it's extremely ungrateful to everyone who cares or has ever cared about you. That's why.

i havent been happy in a year now i feel alone and cold i dont want to live and thats really the end of it
Why am I getting the idea that you're not searching anywhere near close enough for the joys in life?
There are people who are trying to help you. Someone's who's really alone can't say that.

[Deathsight44]

Lmao. You sound like a weaker me. Whether people care for me or not, I am already alone. I'd just rather focus on making others lives what mine is not instead of feeling bad for myself, and trying all this stuff.

why exactly not? everyone always says its so bad but what is really so bad about it

Suicide is bad because it is pathetic, and for the weak. I obviously doubt that I can help you if you are going this far. If you want help with life, then all you have to do is stop. It seems hard as hell as first, but at the same time, it is very easy. At least I learned about a lot of ways to stop doing **** after I learned how to just stop.....

[LongAndRandomUserNameFTW]

Dude, lighten up. Why are you doing this??????

[Rosey]

Dude, I would just like to say something.

People do care about you, remember when you "died"? I wrote you a poem, and Kay, Sab and I cried for days =/ You arent alone, we are here

[LoneWolf]

Killing yourself is NOT an answer. I'll be honest I considered it once. But decided not to. Imagine all the people you would be affecting. You wouldn't have a chance to graduate from high school, go to college, raise a family, etc. Why cutyour life short, it's only going to make things worse. You think that it's bad now, Ha! There's is AT LEAST one person who is going to be miserable without you. I will gurantee that. It's so selfish to kill yourself, like I said before, It's only going to make people miserable. You have a LOT to live for. Friends, family, even yourslef. So don't say your tired of living, I know, I had to help a friend of mine considering killing themself. I talked to him and he eventually got over it. He's happier than ever. But... If you realy deicide it's the only thing left to do... Then you just stripped yourself of a life.

[robert the yogurt]

my self-destruction has begun yet again
i havent slept in so long it isnt even funny
ive been swallowing glass
i tried to OD with as many pills as possible the other day
i tried to stab myself today
no one seems to notice or if they do they dont seem to really care
is it all in my head am i just crazy
i dont know how much longer im gonna last
i dont know how much longer ill even care if i do last.
soon ill just fade away remember me for how i once was and not for how i am.

There are other people around who think of suicide but it seriously doesn't happen wait for your time if your gonna die. Don't spill precious blood. If you seriously want to die donate all your blood to a hospital where its NEEDED or something if you really cannot stop yourself but please don't kill yourself your final hour will be seen as your crackpot hour. AND IT WILL HURT!...ALOT! And trust me there are nice people on this site. You would not be forgotten by your friends here. If not for yourself then for your friends...DO NOT KILL YOURSELF!

[Prince_of_Hearts]

because ive grown tired of living i guess
If you think suciding is going to help, you're wrong. Because as a christian (You really wouldn't care what i believe in) suciding is throwing away your life to live in the middle world (meaning between hell and heaven) Besides, suciding takes you to hell.

But I don't think anyone believes me for those nonchristians.