Recent Content by khhottie30

We have guidance counselors at my high school, but I've already been there three times this year. I don't wanna look like I belong in a crazy house just because I have a lot of problems in my life.

Okay, here's 3 more songs. The first song happens to be the only one with a title right now.

"Nowhere Near Perfect (Just Go)"

Verse 1:

Is there something wrong here,
Or am I just imagining everything?
I could've sworn I saw you
Break her heart just the other day and walk away
But you didn't, no, you're too stupid
To actually see what's happening

Chorus 1:

You're not gonna listen, so I guess you're not my problem now
We're nowhere near perfect, but apparently, you wanna kick me out
Of your life, of your mind, of your body and your soul
And since you don't want me back, I'll just go

Verse 2:

Quit trying to annoy me
And would you quit acting like you're the best thing that's ever happened
To this freakin' place, why don't you say how you really feel to my face
I guess you're so afraid of me, or you're afraid of what she'll think
I'm not buyin' your big, fat lies and,
And I'm not backing down from you

(Repeat Chorus 1 x1)

Bridge:

Whatever happened to us? Whatever happened to the love we shared?
You left me in the cold, and I realized you never cared about me
Oh, but don't leave, if we can make this work
Then I'll be so much better than her

Chorus 2:

You're not gonna listen, so I guess you're not my problem now
We're nowhere near perfect, but apparently, you wanna kick me out
Of your life, of your mind, of your body and your soul
And since you don't want me back, I'll just go
I'll just go as far away from here as I can
When I met you, I thought I finally found a wonderful man
Who would really understand what I'm going through
But it seems like that man will never be you


"2nd song (untitled right now)"

Verse 1:

And you wonder why no one loves you
You kept lying to his face
You're still wishing on shooting stars, 11:11, and everything else
Just wishing he'll come back
You can go ahead and lie, tell yourself that you're fine
But it's no use
He left you for her, now she's his whole world
And he just hates you

Chorus 1:

You feel like drowning now as he pulls you down
To the bottom of this bottomless pit
Can anyone save you? No
Can anyone help you? No, they can't

Verse 2:

Even if you cry a million tears
He's not letting her go
Everyone knows she's better than you, and you try not to listen to the cold, hard truth
But it doesn't matter, 'cause you're still gonna lose
And you can go ahead and lie, tell yourself that you're fine
But it's no use
He left you for her, now she's his whole world
And there's nothing you can do

(Repeat Chorus 1 x1)

Bridge:

Look in the mirror, are you happy with your reflection?
If not, then ya gotta change, gotta change, gotta change for you
Don't give up or give in or let 'em win because they want to
But though you try, he'll still push you around
It's hard to reach for the sky when he knocks you to the ground
Just forget all about him, forget about
Loving him, needing him, wanting him as he leaves you there

Chorus 2:

You sit alone and cry and just wanna die
When you see him being happy with her
You can try and save yourself
But there's no way to escape from this hell
You feel like drowning now as he pulls you down
To the bottom of this bottomless pit
Can anyone save you? No
Can anyone help you? No, they can't
And they won't
They're not gonna rescue you or let you live


"3rd song (also untitled right now)"

Verse 1:

Do you love ruining my life?
Do you love making me cry?
What the hell happened to the man I used to know?
'Cause in his place is a cocky little boy with nowhere to go

Chorus:

Hey, hey, hey, I'll conspire for a while
On how to bring the sunshine back around
Hey, hey, hey, you still try to make my smile
Even though you tend to kick me when I'm down

Verse 2:

Don't try to keep me on a string
You say you still love me, if that's true, then why did you leave?
Did you know I keep dreaming about you?
Did you know I'm still trying to impress you?
My heart's still beating, although you tore it in two

(Repeat Chorus x1)

Bridge:

When I see you, I wanna cry
And punch you in the face at the same time
No, she'll never be as great as me
If only you were smart enough to see that

(Repeat Chorus x2)


...Did I forget to mention that they're all about my ex?

I wish that hug could make me feel better...

I swear, I need a man. But my friend Brooke and I were talking on the phone today, and we pretty much agreed that there's no one at our high school.

Sometimes? Please.

Every guy that I've ever liked since my ex dumped me has lead me on.

Well, I ****ing hate today.

He decided to tell my friends to tell me that he's talking to someone. He ****ing lead me on just like any other guy I've liked. I swear, I guess every guy at my school is a ****ing wuss or something...

He's my crush.

I talked to him last night on MSN, and we pretty much flirted big time. =]

And I've thought about writing him a song, but I'm afraid it might scare him off. When I liked my ex, I wrote him a song, and look how that ended. :/

Probably, unless I have to work refreshments and he has to work food.

Nope, not Monday. I'm working concession with him tomorrow at 2 more tournament games.

Dave, my coach, wants the volleyball and baseball players working concession, and I'm pretty excited because I have the same shift as Payton.

Well, I'm back from the game. I yelled for Payton a lot during the game, but then when he came out of the locker room, all I could think of was, "Hi. Great game."

Uh...so, I'm lame. But that's one of the very few times I've actually gone blank around him. Usually, I say too much.

Helena - My Chemical Romance