Peace and War

I find that I've never been able to be friends with anyone who was fundamentally different, so I find it hard to see people without some common thread being friends. The commonality between myself and my friends may not at first be apparent. It might not even seem important when it does become so. However, at least for me personally, I cannot abide people who are too different from me in certain ways. Sometimes I find the root similarity is capacity for logical thought and I'll relate to them through a mutual thought process. Others I'll find someone who is very emotional and willful and I'll relate instead to their dedication and a certain admiration I have for force of will. But not matter where on the spectrum a friend lies, there is something about them that I either see in myself already or wish to see more of in myself. If someone doesn't think in generally the same way I do, it's hard to understand them so it's hard to talk to them, so it's hard to be friends with them. It works the same way with someone's emotional state. If they're too different they become unfathomable and thusly, hard to deal with or approach. Maybe I'm just a lot more cloistered than some people and this skews my vision of the general issue at hand.

As a person with both a certain amount of stage fright and a tempered tendency for vitriol and sarcasm, I tend to keep a tighter lid on what comes out of my head and out into the open. So while I do consider judgment, I hold back primarily because some things are simply not in good taste to say. Etiquette is on my mind more often than not and always has been. People are like glass and must frequently be handled with care. So if I seem like I've got a shell it's not to keep people out or anything, it's just because a carapace hasn't got the rough edges that a personality does.

It's not really a problem. I just don't want you to expect me to be able to respond quite so eloquently or lengthily to such things.

I can see what you mean. I've heard people refer to this kind of phenomenon differently but I prefer to say that we are on the same wavelength. We're usually in more or less the same place at a given time in the conversation. It amounts to that we're similar, which is how people become friends, by being similar.

The online community is a strange and interesting. I do understand the desire to become a more intimate part of it and if that's your goal I wish you well on it. Though, I will still remain more introverted as you move on. I am contented.
It's good to be understood.

You truly are too kind. Sometimes you say these things and I don't quite know what to say. It is somewhat embarrassing.

You heard correctly. Things did happen to stabilize after several months, so I'm more than alright now.
He he. It's hard to imagine someone thinking so well of me as you. I'm really much more approachable than I seem. It's just that when I speak I'm at times very conscious of audience and that might make me seem a little different to you since I feel like I have something to live up to here. Just something to remember I suppose.

That's a good way to look at things. I'm not too concerned with anyone's physical form on the other side of the servers since I don't strictly identify myself sitting here with the one who is reflected in the typed words, if that makes sense.

Ah, well, normal and simple are pretty close. Friendly cousins, helpful neighbors and all that fun stuff. Regardless of that, isn't it good? Getting to know people better than you did before.

Ahh,Never mind mate,
I figured it out, It was Rainshine!
I feel kinda proud xD.
I think she was challenging you guys "Who am I?" .
At first I thought she was just one of those people how don't care about formalities and just wanna sign up, and type something random, but it appears that maybe she issued a game to the current staff to catch her.
/conspirsiist

You also might be wondering why I VM'd you, Truth is, Your the only mod who ever responds to me.
Misty, Wolfie, and sometimes What? Ignore me.
I dare not even attempt to VM Sabby or Mish, or any of those Mods.
They don't like me.Especially Ienzo, I don't quite remember why.
Never talked to Plums. He seems nice.

Hello again,Mate!
Oy, I must be annoying.
But I have a question, and being the detectivlyish detective I am, I was scrolling down my page and saw a grey name, and as it seems Who Am I? Was banned, So I checked the list of all the banned people and saw you and Mish had a connection between Who Am I? and Rain Shine.Is this connected?Why is She banned now?Am I allowed to ask these questions?
Sorry If I can't, or if she has asked it not be disclosed, but she was sorta kinda a friend of mine and I was wondering.

hey hey, quick question. for the time of the podcast you said 1:00 GMT till Late (except sundays) how late can you do it on sunday? OR can you not do sunday whatsoever?

It wasn't that I didn't enjoy it so much as I knew that there were people who'd both do it better than me and enjoy it more. If you have the motivation and desire to keep it up, it's the job for you. I don't really know what made me so sure that I'd have quit staff regardless of my real life circumstances but I do know that I stand by that feeling in lieu of a true explanation. So don't worry about my little issues, I'm sure you'll be far more deserving of the colors than I ever was.

I'm unsure of how exactly to picture you at the moment, for years now I was set on a Dynasty Warrior's Zhuge as per your avatar of old, but when trying to call up a true image I begin to wonder. Still, even in failure one of my favorite things about people online is imagining them and taking that away from you would be horrible, so I'll leave confirmation or denial for a much later date. Either way, corpulence is a sign of unhealthiness so I find it in general unappealing. Not that I'm exactly the most responsible person about my own well being that there ever was.
Ah, I'm a lot simpler than I sound. I haven't ever had a hard time of it in this world so I feel the greatest transformations time has machined for me are well off from now. Until then, I suppose I'll just have fun while I can.

THAT'S NOT THE POINT HERE! :yelling:
Just gonna feel rather lonesome @_@ Since I've mostly been talking to you tons. Course, I have my unspoken reasons.
I need to find something to do.

BTW, no bad-mouthing about me to Shushu >B|

>B| Jerk off
Tis all well. Just kind of sucks since it's your last free day and all.

You've not been on but I just thought I'd say hello for the day =^^= Don't take this as obsessive or stalkerish please.

Well there's a starting point if I ever heard one. While being on staff is a common appellation we've held, I for some reason doubt it is much of a common experience. Even if I hadn't run into some extenuating circumstances that forced my hand I probably would have quit staff of my own accord. More than anything because I really wasn't doing anything and it made me feel a little guilty. Regardless, I got the pin, so I no longer see the reason to go full pink name on this one.

My life and times. They are uneventful for the most part. I've been writing a bit more but hardly as much as I once did. I've been programming more, but less than I should be. If I don't get up and do something I'll probably start getting fat soon. That's displeasing. Not much else to say. I am a simple person.

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How does it feel to be stalked by Moshi, mate?

Cause we at least have that in common.
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>B| Quiet, you.

At this point, being stalked isn't much to deal with.

It is yearly isn't it? Ha, that's interesting. So what should we talk about? I never know where to start these things.

Well I was pretty random earlier as well so no worries :3

My eyelid has gone a little red and puffy. ; ;

No chat? :o

What the heck is that, dear? xD

pAw haha :3