My most sincere apologies and condolences to the family. That's really tough. He was really young.
I really kind of only told Plums this and just tonight but uhm basically I broke down and told my mother about some things I've been doing that I'd kept secret. To name names, cutting, purging, starving, homicidal thoughts, suicide attempts/suicidal thoughts I couldn't escape. Her solution is to send me to a therapist. I really, really would prefer not to go to one, mostly out of fear of being put on anti-depressants or other meds. I'm strongly against taking medicine that is so over prescribed. To keep from these medications, I'd like some thoughts and help with three main issues. 1. Distractions - I need to find distractions from suicidal/homicidal/harmful thoughts. They're nothing new, but I need to learn to be in control of them. 2. Focus - I need to find a way to focus better on my work such as homework. My grades are dropping because I can't focus on my work and it's adding to the stress that drives me to self-harm. 3. How to keep food down - This is kind of big. I'm far from skinny, but if you ever doubted it let me tell you that what they say about purging not actually helping you lose weight is true. I kind of want to learn how to better keep down food even if it disgusts me. I don't want more health issues than I have. It's at the point where I can't even watch people eating, and I spend lunch breaks and dinner time away from friends/family to escape food. Any help/suggestions would be greatlygreatlygreatly appreciated. </3
Misty ~ Ohhh this makes me feel things! The colours are so gorgeous. I just can't. <3 DPWolf ~ This was really hard to put in second! ;-; The background, colours, and overall energy are so great! I felt like Neku off placement somehow, though. Plums ~ The only really irking thing was the text. It's really gorgeous otherwise. You're improving so quickly! <3
fufufu i did not see this Strawberries or apples? Favourite and least favourite thing about me? (be honest ; - ;!) dango dango dango dango? Would you sing me something to put as my ringtone/text tone? :3 Spaghetti or rotelle or farfalle? What is your reaction to me saying I still listen to your Lady Gaga cover at least twice a month because I love it so much? What series would you most like to rewatch? Best Nintendo DS game? Favourite artist? (musical, visual, or otherwise or all of them) What do you think has changed most about you since your last QT?
/hughughug As for your health issues, I suggest taking a peek at this website. It's outwardly for weight loss and calorie counting, but I've found it's really great for keeping track of how much of certain vitamins and minerals you're taking in every day. It measures the amounts of substances in your food for you which is really helpful. On top of your medicine I'd try taking daily vitamins if you aren't. It can be very stressful to pay so much attention to your intakes, I know, but it's worth a try at least. It can be really hard to make time for friends, or to convince yourself to hang out every now and then. Try committing one hour a week to either stress-free hanging out or to working on homework/a project with a friend. Even if you feel like you're not well, you might find that you're energized by this. Do your friends know about your condition? If not, let them know. They can surely help. I'ven't much advice for you as far as girl problems other than to ask her if she'd be willing to take part in a sober relationship for a while, at least to try. It's tough to like people who are open to others (especially if you're super possessive like I am oops) but it might open both of your worlds to understand each other better. With the parents fighting... I kind of know exactly how you feel. I always shut myself up in my room until it's ~relatively~ blown over. My best advice is to plan something or to talk to your parents while they're not fighting. Decisiveness has always been an issue with me as well, and I think the best way to "get over" it is to start trusting your gut and being slightly more impulsive. Try meditating ten minutes a day if you can. I know it's not much, but I'm pretty much always around if you want to talk. I check KHV several times a day, and I usually have my MSN pulled up on my phone. I swear, no matter what you say you'll never get rid of my adoringness of you. <3 And most people feel that way, I think. We love you. Don't be so afraid to get out and kick bootay! c;
B'aww :v you're too sweet. And yeah, I'll be on tonight so. /hughug
A little, but about eight million times freakier.
It's made by lol. Like fo reals. :v their name is 'lol'.
Abububu D: </3 /hughug Sleep is for weekends >:V
I can't do this anymore man I just can't Has anyone else played it? It's a Yume Nikki fangame but ooohhhsdkhak like 40000 times creepier.
BEST<3 I'm just doing homework pff :v
Pff. How're you? :L
: o It's good to finally meet you, father.
Really tired and stress ahh xD You should try to get as much sleep as possible haha : o
A mostly quick fanfic I wrote, inspired by a friend in creative writing who was writing pokemon fanfiction :v ;; xxx Thin fingertips like lace incarnate calm him. He didn't even realise he'd been yelling. By her face he can tell she doesn't blame him, but he collapses into her arms againandagainandagain. Like some loop - you're already ****ing sick of it the first time through. While he sleeps you tie tiny nooses to your fingertips and hang them from starlight. She doesn't wake him, just watches you. Are they friends? Are they more complete than even that? You think so, but you're not sure. So you keep flirting like you've never seen a girl before. You have, of course, just never one like her. She's technicolor and wind and the taste of broken glass. Human, if you please. You take her to the Universe Room, show her the way the stars and the planets create the definition of the everything. She doesn't say anything, but she never really does. Her eyes are mirrors anyway. You hate how she sees you - the way you see yourself - but it's okay because her kisses are sunshine and her hair is a rough mane. Beneath comets and earth, dark matter and grey matter somehow are one and the same. Mass you can't account for. You hate how it comes out like that. N is just a variable in the grand equation. The weight of one extra atom sends the world as we know it into existence, but n can be high, low; positive, negative. You subtract yourself and see carnations blooming from the ball of your pointed pen, as if there is absolution for suicide. You've thought about that a lot, lately. The word singes the air as you hiss it to the rings of Saturn - "Suicide." Eventually you're standing between her and open air, wishing on a shooting meteorite that you could have been the prince in shining armor. That's his job, though, just like it's yours to be the bad guy. You suppose it's okay that way. Your mass can't be accounted for either way, so you step backwards over the ledge, smiling like the ******* you are and feeling the rush of wind against your back as you fall through technicolor skies lit by blinding sunshine, teeth gritting against broken glass as you're caught by the sea's rough mane. You see her leaning over the edge and reaching for you, and his arms are about her waist like he'll catch her if she falls. It's okay, even if it sickens you. You're just a variable - N. Dark matter, left behind in crushed velvet as eternities rest in infinitesimally tiny carnation petals of splotchy ink. Without the quantum uncertainty of weak knees and dark matter, and shielded by candlelight, you see tomorrow. Physics has no answer for your chest splitting but it's okay because even if you love her there's always tomorrow. Not the same tomorrow as today's, but still tomorrow.
Hello. c: <3 How are you?
I feel bad because I'm more excited about the TWEWY parts of this and the future ( UGH NOMURA PLZ ) of Square than the game itself. However, I'm so glad to see there will be more use of the terrain and more customization available this game! Hehe * u *
Listen to this. It exists.
I am The White DVD Player.
You're all so gorgeous skaj;kj ; A ; !! This is just a picture taken of me by a friend at the Steampunk Tea Party this past weekend. She did some weird sharpening to it. xD Spoiler
