She yells at me over EVERYTHING. Right now, I'm struggling in Algebra 3, and she just *****es at me. She's like, "Go ahead and **** up your chances of getting valedictorian! If you don't bring up your grade in that class, no more volleyball or academic team." I hate when she threatens my extracurriculars just so I'll obey her. I've been trying so hard to ask my teacher for any extra credit projects or something, but my mom says I'm lying. And she forces me to do stupid **** I don't wanna do. One day after volleyball practice, she made me go to a stupid football game. Seriously, she knows I ****ing hate football thanks to my ex. Before she dropped me off at school that morning, she told me she'd take me home because she had to get ready for that night anyways. But when I reminded her after practice, she called me a "whiny, lying *****". I swear, I can't stand her. Sometimes I just wanna scream at her and tell her how I really feel. I've told her she has no clue how difficult being a high schooler is today, and she tells me to quit being a baby. And then she'll bring up about how she "didn't go sleep around with every guy in school like I do." Okay, I know I had sex when I was still dating with my ex, and I shouldn't have done it. But she just needs to shut her ****ing mouth about it and leave the past in the past. So...can anyone suggest anything to me?
That I reeeeeeeeeaaallly like. His name's Payton, and he plays football and baseball. He's just an all-around, awesome guy. My volleyball coach is also the baseball coach, so he's around Payton a lot. And he pretty much thinks we'd be a good couple. I don't get extremely nervous around Payton, yet I'm still all "OMG don't look like a ****** in front of him" inside. My senior volleyball friends have 1st period with him, and they were the ones that told I liked him. He didn't believe that I would ever like him, so the only way they could prove I liked him was if I wrote a note to him telling him that I actually liked him. Of course, my friends said he wanted the usual "check yes or no" thing at the bottom. So I wrote him the note, including the "check yes or no", and I gave it to them to give to Payton. Well, tonight is a football torunament, and he's playing. So I'm wondering...should I talk to him tonight and play it cool and all that jazz, or just...eh, I dunno... You get the picture: girl likes boy, but isn't sure if the boy likes her back.
This is just a song I wrote one day when I just wanted to end my life. I'm talking to my ex, and telling him to just go away and that he's the cause for my death. Verse 1: Why are you here comforting me at my bedside? Just go back to her, is it too much to ask for me to die Alone in this room? I'm bleeding to death, so short of breath This is all thanks to you My heart's shattered, I've been beaten and battered Chorus: I can see the light (it's calling my name) Please end this pain tonight (I'll never be the same) I'm suffering, feeling so weak It's killing me, there's no remedy And I know you would never cry If I were to die Verse 2: This hole in my heart is expanding, don't worry, just Let it go, 'cause I didn't know this pain would be too much For me to bear That's why this knife's in my heart, yeah, I truly thought You'd give me one more chance But you pushed me away, now here I lay on my deathbed (Chorus x1) Bridge: And as my heartbeat stops, you hold me and scream, "I'm so sorry, please don't leave me" But we both know it's too late to save me now For I am gone, and she will love you (Chorus x2) I wish you still loved me I wish I could hold you one last time I wish, I wish You were still in my life
This is a song I wrote for a guy I liked. Well you know, before he told me he didn't have time for a girlfriend. Verse 1: I hope I'm not wasting my time on you This heart's been broken too many times, and I'm running out of superglue I'm just so scared of getting left behind How can I measure up to someone so perfect, so handsome and kind? Chorus 1: Yes, I truly love you And I want you so much Oh Jesse, please be mine Until the end of time Verse 2: I know I'm not the type of girl that you usually fall for But give me a chance, and I'll be everything you need and more Whenever you're around, I can't help but smile And my heart beats faster yet slower at the same time Chorus 2: Yes, I truly love you And I want you so much Oh Jesse, please be mine Until the end of time You have no clue how much I wish You didn't have to graduate But I know if we stayed strong We could prove everyone wrong Bridge: However, I doubt you feel the same I'm just another soul lost in love But you don't know how much I need this And I wanna be good enough For you and only you (Chorus 2 x1) Trust me, honey It's love
I swear, just when I think I've found a great guy and I'm over my ex, BAM! The guy says he's too busy with his job and trying to find college classes to have a girlfriend. Also, last night, I had to have a weird yet very sad dream over and over again. My dream started out with the graduation ceremony for the class of 2010 being held at one of the feeder schools. Then the graduating football players started chasing me and a few of my friends around the school. And guess who decided to chase me? My ex, Wes. Well, Wes chased me outside, where I ended up falling and scraping my arm up a little. He asked me if I was okay, and he kissed my arm. I asked him why he didn't just bandage it up, and he told me he just wanted to kiss it better. So we kept talking for a little while, then he helped me up and said, "I miss us." Of course, my first reaction was saying, "Is this some sort of trick to break my heart again?" And he said, "No, Summer. I really miss us." So we were silent for a while, then he hugged me and said, "You have no idea how much I miss you. I wish you were mine again." I replied, "Well, that's not gonna happen since you're still dating Kaitie." But he told me that he was gonna break up with her that night, then call me. Then it was time to go, and we stopped hugging and went our separate ways before Kaitie came outside and grabbed Wes's arm. He told her he "forgot something" and had to go inside to get it. That's when he found me, held my hand, and kissed me. Then I woke up crying. I cried because I doubt it will come true. He doesn't even talk to me because she yells at him and calls him names (fat ass, ********, etc.) whenever he tries to. I told one of my close friends about this dream, and they said it could be a sign that he still loves me. I'm just so confused, and I keep having this dream. I miss Wes, and I can't keep denying it. EDIT: He deserves so much better than her. She's cheating on him with her ex, and he doesn't know.
Verse 1: Weren't you the one who made me cry, The one who made me wanna end my life The proof I have that shows happy endings are fake? Everyday, it was another fight I needed you, but you just pushed me aside I guess I was just another heart to break Never let me be myself, you made my life a living hell Now I know better than to listen to you Chorus: So just shut up, get out of my sight Shut up, get out of my mind Shut up, get out of my life What do I have to do to make you Shut up and go away? Shut up, it ends today Shut up is all I gotta say to you Verse 2: Silly boy, I'll no longer believe Those lies that blinded me, no I couldn't see And when I needed you most, you were never there Can't you go and ruin someone else's life? Somebody who wouldn't care to waste their time With a selfish jerk like you while I live without a care If only you could see the pressure you put on me Now it's gone, and so is the pain (Chorus x1) Bridge: But remember, I was your first everything First kiss, first love, but apparently, first ain't good enough for you You said you wanted the best, but you let that go Yeah, you let me go (Chorus x2) Verse 1: Weren't you the one who made me cry, The one who made me wanna end my life, The proof I have that shows happy endings are fake?
Part of a song I'm working on. Verse 1: You don't own me, I am not your slave Set me free, set me free today I'm real, I am a person Not some feeble, broken life you can worsen I don't belong in this terrible place I'm put through hell by you and your angel face I needed love in my life, not abuse I shouldn't have talked to you if I knew I'd be used Chorus: I think it's time I stood up for myself This is my final goodbye I'll no longer cry out for help I'll make it through, yeah, I'll survive
Just a little song I'm working on. Verse 1: I just can't get rid of you No, I do not want you on my mind Baby, are you feeling it, too? This sweet seduction, it's unlike any other Honey, stop teasing me like you do Playing me like I'm just a game The only thing that can please me is you All that needs answered is if you feel the same Chorus: You're my weakness, my addiction My love, my Achilles' heel I never knew that a guy like you existed That a guy like you could be so real You're showin' the signs, I'm feelin' the vibe Boy, you know I need you in my life So listen here, it's just the way I feel You are my Achilles' heel
Yet, I'm still crying. I really think I'm bipolar or something. I was talking to him over IM, and one minute I was okay. Then, the next minute, I broke down and just cried for half an hour. I felt like cutting myself, and I saw a knife, but it's a good thing I didn't touch it. I'm trying to stop loving him, and I thought I was doing okay for the first few minutes talking to him. But when he mentioned that he was celebrating his new girlfriend's birthday Saturday, I thought about how we weren't together long enough to celebrate his or my birthday. By the way, when she messaged me a few minutes later and asked how my life was, I told her that Wes and I were friends again. All of a sudden she's all, "WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?! When did you talk to Wes? And why? And what about?" Then she was all, "This weekend's my birthday, and I'm making him go shopping with me and go to church with me. Why? Because I said so, and it's MY birthday!" I swear, I just wanna move to another school so I don't have to fake being happy for them. I try to be happy, then I just break down 2 minutes later. And when he first messaged me saying I was the worst girl he ever dated because I was so annoying, I just went numb for a second, then it felt like my heart just went KA-BOOM! and shattered even more than it did the day he dumped me. I didn't realize that I was annoying him by saying I loved him everyday. I'm sorry, I must be annoying on here for having so many problems with my ex. :'(
With no one to punch. Any suggestions?
Verse 1: Love is nothing but a four letter lie That I am forced to believe in But love doesn't believe in me It's why I've cried so many tears And after all these years, I still try To find something that doesn't exist Something like Chorus: You are just another prince from another fairytale Trying to sweep me off my feet Well, it ain't working out too well 'Cause I don't believe you're truly in love with me (Verse 1 x1) (Chorus x1) Bridge: Love is a major sacrifice of your life For the one you want and need But I am nobody to the world Just another heartbroken girl Who will never understand love Because it doesn't understand me (Chorus x2) And there's no such thing as true love
Just a song I wrote to my ex telling him what's gonna happen when his new girlfriend cheats on him like she did with all her other boyfriends. Verse 1: I saw you holding her hand today Well, what exactly can I say? Just stay out of my life, 'cause you don't have the right to brag And just because we're over with Doesn't mean I'm through with this I've got more to tell than simply, "Go to Hell and don't talk to me" Chorus: When you're feeling lonely, it's a big deal to the world But when I'm heartbroken, I'm just another girl With another sob story, you get all the glory for taking my life But when she finally cheats on you or leaves you to fend for yourself I dare you to cry Verse 2: You're nothing but a stupid guy Who made me believe all those stupid lies I wish one day you'd feel the same seering pain that I had to Your new girlfriend's cheating as we speak If you'd learn to actually trust me You wouldn't be in this situation, so quit wasting your time with her (Chorus x1) Bridge: I gave up everything for you (and look what happened) I should've known this love wasn't true (it's all your fault) Why did you fall for her? You're just gonna get hurt You keep on denying, but when her scheme goes just as she planned it All I'm gonna tell you is, "I told you so" (Chorus x2) I dare you to cry (cry, cry, cry) I dare you to cry (cry, cry, cry) Tears falling from your eyes (your eyes, your eyes) She destroyed your heart tonight
I can't take it anymore. I hate my life. My ex and his new girlfriend really hate me, and I don't know why. I did nothing to them, but they keep calling me a ***** and a ****. His mom keeps calling me and says I can talk to her about anything, but it's not helping. I still love him, but he hates my ****ing guts. I'm starting to cut myself again because of him, and I don't wanna face him when I go back to school. What hurts is that I really wanna prevent him from getting hurt. His new girlfriend cheats on all her boyfriends; does he think she'll just change for him? And what is really irritating is that she lied to me about liking him. She was acting like a "friend" and kept saying, "Oh, he's so fat, and only girls are supposed to have breasts." Then she turns around and is all, "Oh, I really like him." I ****ING HATE HER!!!
Well, life and my ex. I still kinda like him, but I don't show it. Anyways, he found this song I wrote about him like 2 months ago, and he decides to message me on MySpace. The message said, "Okay listen. I'll talk to you as your friend, but I don't wanna get back together. So stop writing these ****ing songs asking me to get back together with you. It's not gonna happen, Summer, and if you keep writing stuff like that, I won't even be your friend. By the way, don't talk to me in front of my friends." And I pretty much doubt that he'll ever come and talk to me. Also, I'm feeling depressed a lot. I'm okay when I'm around my friends, but when I'm away from them, I feel like ****. My family doesn't make it any better. My mom calls me a ****, *****, whore, and skank everyday. Most of the time, it's because I either don't put on make-up before I go to school or I don't wear what she wants me to wear. She also calls some of my friends bad influences because they're "emo". Seriously, none of my friends are emo, and they're never bad influences. They're just being themselves. Unless, you know, we're talking about the fake friends. Some of my "friends" yell at me over the tiniest things. My "friend", Emily, called me an ugly ***** because I wouldn't let her copy off me. Another "friend", Megan, yelled at me and called me fat while I was spotting Kayla in weightlifting. And you know what she was doing? Nothing. She sat on her lazy ass while everyone else lifted weights. Seriously, I'm sick of it. I just wanna scream out, "LET ME LIVE MY OWN DAMN LIFE!"
It's still untitled, but you guys should know by now that it's just another love song. My friend Nise had to help a little in the 2nd verse. Verse 1: I apologize for taking our relationship for granted It's all my fault, and I'll accept that And even though you left me with my heart so shattered I wish for our happily ever after to come true Baby, I still love you I'll admit that I keep crying myself to sleep 'Cause I'm thinking, thinking of you and me But you've already moved on, now I'm just a memory And everyone's saying my love for you made me blind I feel as if I might die tonight Chorus: I'm sorry I wasn't the perfect girlfriend But I wish you'd give me one more chance to prove myself Please give me just one more day to tell you How much I miss you Verse 2: As I'm walking down this lonely road The memories, they overflow A dark abyss, a hollow hole I'm finding hard to let go of you Dear angel, there's nothing else I can do Chorus: I'm sorry I wasn't the perfect girlfriend But I wish you'd give me one more chance to prove myself Please give me just one more day to tell you How much I miss you I'm sorry I wasn't the perfect girlfriend But I wish you'd give me one more chance to prove myself Please give me just one more day to tell you How much I miss you Bridge: Death is much better than life without you I need you by my side, right here, right now I wished you'd care that I'm waiting here for you I wanna be back in your loving arms Chorus: I'm sorry I wasn't the perfect girlfriend But I wish you'd give me one more chance to prove myself Please give me just one more day to tell you How much I miss you I'm sorry I wasn't the perfect girlfriend But I wish you'd give me one more chance to prove myself Please give me just one more day to tell you How much I miss you I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Wesley, please give me one more chance I want you here next to me I need you here next to me I love you, yeah I love you, yeah I love you Outro: I apologize for taking our relationship for granted It's all my fault, and I'll accept that I keep hoping that after all this time, you'd come back to me And we could be happy again Because baby, I still love you
This is all I have so far. Verse 1: He's complicated, kinda sorta very shy He gets frustrated over the smallest things in life He never seems to make sense But most of the time, he acts like a gentleman And even though he used me, I still love him to death He always accused me of **** I never did He left me hanging, but I still pray He wants me back, like in the old days Chorus: When he loved me, it felt so wonderful But when he dumped me, my entire world fell apart Ever since he left me, I haven't been able to move on Because he's so beautiful
This is all I have so far of this song. Verse 1: Sittin' there with your glitter and pearls Everyone bows down 'cause you're queen of the world You and your boyfriend only wear Hollister Ain't this the life? You rule the school with your clique by your side But you never know the difference between truth and lies Behind the skanky make-up and fake alibi The true you hides And she cries out, "Someone help me" Chorus 1: You're so perfect yet so naive Just admit it, you lost your way Everyone loved you, then she came along Now you're simply a has-been
Verse 1: I trusted you with my fragile heart So what happened? You fooled me all along Why does love always go wrong for me? I keep making the same mistakes Chorus 1: Are you homesick? Well, there's nothing you can do about it 'Cause love don't live here anymore Why did you ever leave? I thought you truly loved me But that was until you tore me apart Apart, tore me apart Verse 2: I remember holding you in my arms And I was stupid to believe we'd be Together for always And eternity I thought you would be the one Chorus 1: Are you homesick? Well, there's nothing you can do about it 'Cause love don't live here anymore Why did you ever leave? I thought you truly loved me But that was until you tore me apart Apart, tore me apart Bridge: But I can't keep denying I feel like I'm dying Every night, I'm crying I'm crying over you Chorus 2: Baby, if you're homesick There's only one thing you can do about it Come back, come back home I miss looking into your eyes I miss all the good times we had I can't stand being alone I need you
Verse 1: I know what you're thinking: That I won't survive without you in my life I try so hard to think of what's ahead Than of the memories we made once upon a time I admit I still love you, but you don't care You broke me, destroyed me, lost all we shared But I will move on, find someone better for me Just you wait and see, I'll... Chorus 1: Shine like the stars The divine, loving hearts Are beating tonight So let them shine bright Verse 2: I walk through this shattered life Bruises and scars all over me My blood is pouring out, and I am dying But I won't give in, I won't give in to you There's so much about me you'll never figure out I've been through so much heartache, the lies and the doubt These tears, they show weakness I'm trying to hide What doesn't hurt me makes me stronger And no longer will I cry Chorus 2: Shine like the stars The divine, loving hearts Are beating tonight So let them shine bright Never disappear Baby, I'll be right here Today is our day And nothing will be the same Bridge: No one will make me cry Because I, I My heart has healed, and I am invincible Chorus 2: Shine like the stars The divine, loving hearts Are beating tonight So let them shine bright Never disappear Baby, I'll be right here Today is our day And nothing will be the same Shine like the stars The divine, loving hearts Are beating tonight So let them shine bright Never disappear Baby, I'll be right here Today is our day And nothing will be the same Outro: I have defied you I will live on My heart is still beating And your curse on me is gone
