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    One Last Time


    Today is my eight year anniversary on KH-Vids.

    A while back, during The Purge of 2016, I made a departure thread about how my leave was expedited by the events that happened over the course of that month. How I had been thinking about it for a few years at that point, and how I kept delaying it until I felt like it was okay if I left & I actually had a reason to leave.

    Last time was to fight for the members of the site, and stand against someone who only saw it as monthly check with no intent or ability to serve the site well. This time; in peace, and to take my next step for my future.

    Back when I first joined staff in 2011, I always told myself “I’ll do this until I graduate Uni,” and have remained adamant on that stance ever since. I had a sense that, at that point, I'll have probably figured out what I want to do, and wouldn't have time for the site anymore.

    Although I’ve never discussed it publicly before, my first two years of college were very trying. I was in an atmosphere on campus where I felt as though I was always tearing myself down, and with things not much better on the site around that time, it felt hopeless at some spots. I felt alone and invisible at school, that I could just up and disappear one day and none would be the wiser.

    As a result, I think I ended up throwing myself at KHV. Even though I knew tensions were high, that anything and everything were at each other's throats for a bitter while, it was one place were I felt like I could make a difference. A place where I could see the things I do get completed, get people involved and happy. I was trying to do more so I could feel proud that, at least in one place, I was on top of myself and the goals I set out to achieve.

    It continued like this through second year, to the point I practically resigned myself to being alone. But it was the start of my third year, where I found Uni to get better. I found groups of friends I really liked being around, I became more involved on campus, and I felt like I was finally where I wanted to be performance wise.

    I’m sure y’all noticed, but my activity from that point (Fall 2014) to now has been very sporadic. As much as I tried to be around regularly, I always ended up finding something else that made me happy, that made me want to reach out and experience more when I closed this screen. I thought about my first three years of staff, riddled with site drama. I thought of how, out of my eight years as a member here, six years of that was spent as a staff member; 75% of my membership here was with a red, purple, or blue name. I couldn't even remember what it was like to just log onto the site only because I wanted to and had free time On more than one occasion, I found myself thinking: why am I putting myself through this?

    The 2012 hack, the constant bitter tensions in the two years that followed, people acting weirdly mysterious and edgy? Although there were innumerable, terrific times I had on the site, every time new drama started, I found myself drifting back to the negatives that had come along with it. I thought of the people, the clubs, the place I found at school, and wondered why I wasn't throwing my all there, why I wasn't investing the little time I had left in Uni after two whole years were wasted?

    And yet, even then, I still tried to pick KHV. I remembered the late night MSN conversations with @Aura about bad drawings and Aizen looking like a chicken. The Al Pal convos with @Alex856, @Clear_so_you_can't_See, and @Spunk Ransom. Lounging around MSN with @Juicy. The silly staff chats Sabby started out of the blue, or the spontaneous group chats @What? or @Lulus_Moogle filled with 18 different members. I remembered the fun I had doing the User Awards the first time, of the progress in making a better atmosphere for the site when @DigitalAtlas and @Novalentine came to me about starting The Lounge. Even if there were times it felt like it wasn't worth it, there were so many more moments and pieces of my eight year history here that bring a smile to my face whenever I think back.

    I knew I was getting busier. I knew I wouldn't be able to commit after a certain point. But I wanted to hang on, to try and see if I could make it.

    Coming into last summer, I told myself that I would try and put in another two years before hanging up the blue, to make up for the times I wasn’t around. I told @Sabby just as much when she asked why I was still on KHV. Sitting where I am now though, I can't commit to that idea anymore.

    I’m going to start attending graduate school next Tuesday, and then eventually go for a doctorate in psychology in hopes of opening my own, affordable inner city private practice for populations of people that need it. I have friends back at my previous Uni, who graduate this year, and want to spend as much time with them as I can. I’ve got family and friends I haven’t really spent time with liked I used to, and a lot to catch up on. I'm seeing someone, and we're going to be seeing each other again after four months apart. I have jobs I want to get, places I want to go, people I want to meet -- so much of the world is open to me now.

    And sometimes, you have to know when to leave things you love in the past, and allow yourself the chance to love the things that follow.


    I love KH-Vids. I loved it since I first joined that fateful August 21st, with the wide-eyed, inexperienced enthusiasm of someone new to the Internet. This site has watched me and stood by me as I grew up. You were there with me from being that slightly out of sorts 15 year old to now, the 23 year old, more confident, more self assured...admittedly less patient and ready to be petty, but that’s beside the point. :b

    Being on staff the past six years has been an experience I couldn’t imagine being without. Even though the team has drastically changed through the years, and there were really intense times, I have the utmost respect for everyone I worked with. From that quiet summer of 2011 as a fresh Sectional Mod all the way to now as an Admin.

    All of you have put passion, effort, and love into the things you did, and getting to know you all throughout the years has been a privilege. I know not all of you are on the site anymore. I know not all of you may come back to the site anymore. But I really, really want to thank you for everything you did for me and for this site. Y’all are like that weird family that I never dreamed I’d have, but ended up having, and I would never wish any of that away.

    Looking over my years on the site, I’ve met so many great people, and admittedly, some people that I really don’t want to think about or see again after this thread. I've made mistakes as a staff member, as we're all wont to do. I've taken long to respond to inquiries at times, and even slower to keep up to date with projects at others. The decisions I've made and experiences I've had, both good and bad, have shaped me in some way or form. Just like all of you have. Whether we talked all night, whether we talk now or haven’t talked in years, all of that has left a mark on me.


    I'm torn on whether to do shout outs or not, since I did them in the last thread and repeating 'em is a liiiiil awkward. Instead of doing individual ones, I think I will just say, to every member on KH-Vids I've talked to or seen around:

    Thank you, for everything. These last eight years have been an unforgettable ride of ups and downs, of frustration, arguments, but also of laughter, and camaraderie. But at the end of it all, you guys were people I was around practically every single day for nearly a decade. All of you helped get me to where I am today, and I wouldn’t be the person I am now without KH-Vids.

    I don't know what positive or negative effects I've had on your time here, or if anything I did really contributed to you at all. There were times where I did my best, and others where I fell short of that. But at the very end, all I truly hope for is that this site means to you what it has meant to me.


    A ridiculous number of you already have me on social media, but here’s my tumblr and my Twitter if you ever wanna get in touch. Last time I said I would hopefully still be around, but truthfully: I don't think I will. Outside a couple sporadic appearances every now and then (and the obligatory "THIS IS REAL AND I AM CRYING" post when KH3 drops), after today, I think this will be the end of the rope for me here on KH-Vids.

    I'm likely going to leave the Discord chat for a bit after this week, until I get re-assimilated into school. I'll probably join back later on, but I guess we'll see where that shoe lands when it does.


    It’s been one of the wildest rides of my life y'all, and I’ll remember every single moment.


    Stay fresh,
    Plums
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 21, 2017, 7 replies, in forum: Departure Hall
  2. Plums
    Hey everyone!

    Usually during the User Awards, we allow people to self-nominate for our Best AMV category. In this thread, you can post the AMV(s) which you want to be considered for our polling period.

    Guidelines
    You have until 11PM ET on Thursday, August 24th to post your nominations.
    You may post a maximum of two AMVs to be put into the running.
    An AMV of any nature is allowed (Kingdom Hearts, Final Fantasy, Naruto, anything!) so long as it is appropriate & within our site rules. There are no time limits or restrictions. The video must have been finished within the awards period (anytime after August of 2016).
    If you have any questions, feel free to ask!
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 16, 2017, 3 replies, in forum: 2017
  3. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @cstar
    @Ghost
    @jafar
    @61
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 1 replies, in forum: 2017
  4. Plums
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    Most Verbose

    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @cstar
    @Ghost
    @StardustXtreme
    @NutheadBros
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 1 replies, in forum: 2017
  5. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @KHGrl15
    @Makaze
    @Lunafreya Nox Fleuret
    @NutheadBros
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 6 replies, in forum: 2017
  6. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    • Aelin Fireheart swearing on a regular basis
    • Ghost doesn't explain what she's talking about, despite nobody understanding
    • When DigitalAtlas and Stardust started dating
    • Toy Story world in KH3
    • Decreased activity across KHV
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 1 replies, in forum: 2017
  7. Plums
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    Most Serious

    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @Zimmy
    @Ghost
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 0 replies, in forum: 2017
  8. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @Skyheart
    @Mish
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 0 replies, in forum: 2017
  9. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @Maka Albarn
    @Mish
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 0 replies, in forum: 2017
  10. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @Mish
    @Makaze
    @Ars Nova
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 2 replies, in forum: 2017
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    Most Missed

    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @Maka Albarn
    @Ars Nova
    @Hiro of Time
    @Shuhbooty
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 0 replies, in forum: 2017
  12. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @KHGrl15
    @Ghost
    @Zelda
    @Fearless
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 2 replies, in forum: 2017
  13. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @VermillionMok
    @Ghost
    @Jiku Neon
    @Trigger
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 6 replies, in forum: 2017
  14. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @al215
    @Boy Wonder
    @Korosu
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 1 replies, in forum: 2017
  15. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @Captain Arch
    @Korosu
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 2 replies, in forum: 2017
  16. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @Krowley
    @Korosu
    @Fearless
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 9 replies, in forum: 2017
  17. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @Krowley
    @Korosu
    @Boy Wonder
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 3 replies, in forum: 2017
  18. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @Makaze
    @Trigger
    @DigitalAtlas
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 2 replies, in forum: 2017
  19. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @libregkd
    @Ghost
    @mvitkun
    @peterjack
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 3 replies, in forum: 2017
  20. Plums
    Cycle 1 is the Most Nominations!
    Cycle 2 is the Artistic Nominations!
    Cycle 3 is Best/Worst Nominations!
    Cycle 4 is General Nominations!

    And here are the nominees:
    @libregkd
    @Midnight Star
    @Captain Arch
    @DigitalAtlas
    @Jube
    Thread by: Plums, Aug 11, 2017, 3 replies, in forum: 2017