It's like this: On Thurs.(April 30) I was suppose to go with a small group of classmates to decorate a car for a trip the next day(details of that don't matter). The left in the middle of the day, without me. The secretaries in the main office said they tried to find me, but if that was the case they should have gone to my class, where a normal person would be during class time. Naturally, I was pissed. I also felt a bit rejected. So, like any other time I get angry, I hit something and started to cry. The next day, I saw them, and they didn't say one word to me. If they truly tried to find me, I would at least get an apology, right? So I felt even more rejected. but it gets better... Today, in web tech, some stupid a** takes my seat after taunting me about it in the hall(like always). So, with a short fuse, I told him to "Get the f*ck out of my seat, now" without yelling. And so starts the sh*tstorm(because he's a popular senior, I'm only a junior). So now I'm getting sh*t from a little freshman(no offense to anyone here). So I to her to STFU(surprised I was not kicked out of class XD). By that point everyone was afraid to sit next to me, and made no effort to hide it. By that point, I was ready to break a table in half. I was also tossed around in the lunch line by another high and mighty freshman. After I'm pushed into her she has the nerve to tell me to stop pushing, after she did it first. Now I wanted to snap a metal bar in half. Again, I hit something, and cried. Then she acts like nothing happened saying "yo, you ok?" This makes me hate people so much more. I was just beginning to get out of the whole anti-social thing. I was also really staring to beat my depression, but now I feel like I'm going back to that. I'm beginning to hate myself for it. Though I'm too afraid to try to hurt myself, I'm already looking for excuses not to go to school, and just stay locked up in my room. EDIT: Stupid freshman girl was starting with me again. It's not really helping me feel any better. I really need some help.
Please calm down. Most of the time people won't take the time to look for you or care for you, it's that simple. Sometimes they are too absorbed on their own problems and can't see anything else. Don't grudge at everything, just remind your friends that you would like to be more taken notice of. As for your guts. That's some big ones you have there and that's kinda good, but don't overdo it, getting too angry only hurts you. When you mean freshman, does that mean they are younger than you? If so don't let them get away with pulling crap, kids should be put in their place with strong and firm wording. Anyways if the person has common sense, just take a deep breath and explain calmly, most likely the person will reciprocate your kindness. Just don't fall into depression, it's not worth it and will only make things worse.
People are stupid in the essence they don't think twice about what they say or do. So think of something to make them look like **** in front of everyone else. Because truly the joke is on them. They aren't going to succeed doing anything or get along with anyone in the long run if they don't grow up. I hate when people don't apologize. I hate when people push you around then act like nothing happened. And I hate the seat ****. Next time,just sit somewhere else.I know it makes you look like your giving in..but it will save you the extra anger and embarassment next time.
