Fast Food Madness: The Epic Return V2

Roxas frowned slightly, his eyes softer at the look on Namine's face. "What can I do?" he asked. If an apology wasn't enough, which he knew it wasn't, he wanted to know what else he could do to make it up to her. Her happiness mattered, even if he didn't show that's what he thought sometimes.

 

Namine bit her lip lightly, realizing that she wasn't doing a good job of putting this behind her. She wanted to move forward, even if it would take some time. For now, though, she could at least do something to show she wasn't upset enough to walk away with a frown on her face. She pushed herself up from the stool and stood in front of Roxas, taking a small step forward before she wrapped her arms around him and allowed her head to rest on his shoulder.

 

Roxas wrapped his arms around Namine naturally, though he wasn't sure why she hugged him. Yeah, he appreciated the embrace, but it didn't fully answer his question. That was what he wanted, but he had been pretty selfish lately; this was what Namine wanted right now, so he was going to push his own preferences aside.

 

Namine shut her eyes, holding herself closely to Roxas. There were so many things that she wanted, but she couldn't have put it into words at that moment. Instead, she realized that she just wanted Roxas to hold her for a little while. That was why she was in his embrace now, hoping that she could gain some peace of mind from being held by the person she loved.

 

Roxas exhaled a soft breath and stared at the bar stool behind Namine as he held her gently. He tightened his embrace slightly, just holding her. There was nothing being said, so he didn't say anything.

 

"Sorry," Namine said softly, feeling as if Roxas deserved an apology. "I'm just...being over sensitive. That's all." She was probably over reacting to everything, and she didn't want that to be the case. Yes, Roxas had been wrong for doubting her, but he apologized. Now it was time to move on.

 

"Don't say that," Roxas replied softly, squeezing Namine. "You have every right to be upset with me. I was wrong." He didn't like her thinking she shouldn't be reacting this way, because it was the right way to do so. He suspected her of not loving him for who he was, but for he was a part of. That was an assumption he should have never made.

 

Namine nodded against Roxas's shoulder a little bit, though she disagreed. She didn't know why she was having a hard time dropping this; she accepted his apology, but she was still sad that he had doubted her in the first place. She felt lied to, in a way, because she had thought she and Roxas had a pretty open relationship again. Apparently she was misled.

 

Roxas held Namine closer to him as he sighed softly, the effects of his accusation hitting him hard now. He didn't want to feel that way, but it was inevitable; he'd made the mistake of thinking the girl he loved with all he had didn't feel the same, all because of something that happened a few years ago. It was in the past, so why couldn't he leave it there?

 

Namine shut her eyes a little more tightly, feeling her eyes become moist. What if she and Roxas didn't have the relationship she thought they had? If he didn't trust her or believe her when she said something important, what did that say about them? "Do you not trust me?" Namine asked before she could stop herself, her voice sounding choked-up.

 

Roxas closed his eyes, taking in a breath. "It's not that," he said, opening his eyes and glancing out of the corner of his eye at the girl he was holding. It really wasn't that he had trust issues. He was just...different lately.

 

"Then what is it?" Namine forced herself to say, swallowing afterward so that she could get rid of the lump that had appeared in her throat. She wanted to know that Roxas trusted her, and believed that she wouldn't lie to him. But she also wanted to believe that he wouldn't lie to her.

 

Roxas lowered his sight to the floor as he held Namine, not sure how to answer that question. "...I dunno," he said, sighing. He couldn't really explain it.

 

Namine opened her moist eyes, looking down at the ground when she heard Roxas's response. He...didn't know? She wasn't sure how to respond to that; she wanted to comprehend what was going on, but if Roxas didn't know, then she couldn't possibly understand it either.

 

Roxas pulled back from Namine then, putting his hands on his shoulders. He looked down at her with big blue eyes, trying his best to get through to her. "But it's not you, okay?" he told her directly. "It's not you." And he knew that. It was him, but he just didn't know what it was about him that made him so doubtful.

 

Namine forced herself to make eye-contact with Roxas when he distanced himself a little bit by placing his hands on her shoulders. She nodded wordlessly, seeing in his eyes that he meant what he said. But if it wasn't her, then she didn't know what it was. She was confused, just like she had told Kairi earlier. But her heart wasn't confused; she and Roxas loved each other, even if it didn't come across sometimes. She knew that was true even when things weren't perfect, like now.

 

"I'll...figure it out," Roxas said softly, his eyes glancing to the side for a short minute. What exactly he had to figure out was himself. He wasn't used to having these problems, even after being back for a while.

 

Namine nodded again, her hands at her side since Roxas had pulled her back from him. However, she felt the need to answer verbally as well, just because she had been quiet for a while. "Okay."

 

Roxas gazed at Namine for a moment, wanting to get rid of the look in her eyes. He didn't know if it was disappointment, sorrow, fear... Whatever it was, he wanted to make it disappear. He nodded slightly and brought his hands down from Namine's shoulders in silence.

 

When Roxas took his hands off her shoulders, Namine brought up a hand and tucked some of her blond hair behind her ear before her eyes shifted to the floor again. She didn't know what to say now...it was awkward.