I seriously need to see a psychiatrist... but I'm too afraid. I need to be distracted 24/7 otherwise I get very horrible thoughts in my head and I can't stop them. It happened again today, I kept thinking of my mother dying and everybody leaving me, me being alone on the streets, my best friend dying, I ended up on the lying on the floor crying [it's a god thing my friends and I sit in the cozy "Seniors Lounge" with carpet and no younger grades] I believe it may be a reaction to last years depression stage that I think I pulled myself out of. My friends found me after the lunch bell in the English classroom, apparently I was alot whiter than usual. They cheered me up a bit, but it wasn't for another 2 hours until I felt better. If something is on my mind, it usually takes me days to forget about it, and since a lot happens, this doesn'y happen often, but if I can't distract my self, this is what happens.
These things happen believe it or not. You've just gotta remember that no matter how bad things seem to be, no matter how much stress and crap that comes your way, no matter how powerless you feel... You've gotta remember that you're not alone. You're cared about and there are people that love you enough to help you. Keep smiling and just remember that your existence does matter. :glomp:
You have that kind of feelings too? O_O Same here. I would sometimes think of that while in school when I'm listening to a lecture. Mmmmm..... I don't take my mind off of it and just let it roll. I try to ignore it and the only time I'm ignoring it is when I'm with my friends. Maybe playing games would help me and also talking online. Another way for me would be to play a sport to take my mind off of it. *purrs*
I don't know. I think it's strange that you would even go around thinking about things like that. Are there other things going on that would make you think such thoughts? you mentioned a getting over a depression, but if you are having such thoughts often, then you still may be in one. As of right now, all I have to say is that if you catch yourself thinking such things, then concentrate on thinking about other things that you enjoy doing.
aww that nearly made me cry xD Ummm.... I get written notes from half my grade, asking me not to run... i don't want to say the reason why actually it's not often, but i do need a distraction... if there's nothing i can do, or think about, they pop up... i guess i agree with the 'not getting over it' part... i still do get upset.... Damn
It means that when I run. something happens that scares the grade also running does distract me though... though i'm a walker the only time i run is away from StOHW lol
I believe its the devil playing mind**** with you. Its happened to me before too, still does actually when I'm in a bad situation, so I know how you feel. Try to think of the happier things in life. O-i know *jumps up and down* play the Glad Game. Its were you think of something to be glad about today, e.g. I'm glad my English teacher didnt give me detention for being late today, and so on. Think nothing of death or sorrow or depression. Take up hobbies if you get that desperate, something that will always keep you distracted. Hopefully then you will stop having these horrible thoughts.
