Heavy, Non-Existent Heart

Saix nodded and kissed her. "i know i can. i won't let you down." he smiled weakly at her.

 

Raiu's spirit smiled as he kissed her. Her spirit had to fade away soon but she had one more thing to say. I want to thank you. You made me realize what it's like to live again and that not everything is what it seems.

 

Saix smiled a little more. "....and i would like to thank you.... you taught me how to feel... and how to care....."

((gtg to bed. g'night. ^^))

 

Pass on what we have learned from each other on to Sonata... she will need to know it. I have to go now... remember what I taught you both and I will always be here. Her spirit began to glow with light and transformed back into a red butterfly. The butterfly finally floated away and into the sky.

((Ok... good night!))

 

Saix stared at the butterfly until it was compltely out of view. he stared at Raiu's grave. "i will... goodbye..."

 

Sonata was happy to see her friend once more. She walked towards the grave and stroked it with her hand. "She's so much more grown up then I am..."

 

Saix smiled. "yeah.... it's a quality i liked about her." he walked up to the grave and put a hand on it.

 

"How was she able to grow up so fast while you two were apart? Maybe it's just something she had to learn for herself." Sonata continued touching Raiu's grave with her hand. She knew that no matter how grown up she tried to be, Raiu was always insecure about herself.

 

"i'm not sure.... i might have had something to do with it." Saix took his hand off the grave.

 

"She was always insecure about herself wasn't she?" Raiu had told Sonata everything that happened, that included what she felt most of the time. Sonata knew that her worries grew worse by the day.

 

"yeah..." Saix replied as he moved away from the grave and went to stare at the sun again.

 

"I know she doesn't want you to blame yourself. I know I don't either." Sonata walked up beside him and stared at the setting sun. She knew that he was the one who saved her in the end.

 

"i see no other cause of her death other than my own stupid, childish, selfish actions..." Saix wiped a tear off his cheek.

 

"Don't say that. You should know not to blame yourself for her choices... she even said it herself. She chose to sacrifice her own life to save you." Sonata knew her words were right. He really needed to stop blaming himself.

 

"arrrrrgh!" Saix cried out as he held his head. "YOU SHOULD HAVE STAYED OUT OF THE WAY!!! YOU SHOULD HAVE LET ME DIE!!!" he held his face in his hands.

 

Sonata didn't know what to say but she remembered when Raiu told her about when they first met, how he saw a lot of sadness in her eyes. She walked up behind him and slowly embraced him from behind. "When you guys first met, she told me how you saw sadness in her eyes from being alone for so long. If you had died, she would suffer again. I know she would have."

 

Saix cried silently. he slowly turned around and embraced Sonata back.

 

"She told me everything about her past and it's hard to think she went through that much suffering. If she had lost you, she would have suffered again. You never wanted her to suffer, so it all makes sense, doesn't it? By making her hoice, it seems she's happy once again." At that moment it seemed like she was just as sensible as her friend Raiu. They were just like each other, even though Sonata was younger.

 

Saix didn't respond. he cried into Sonata's shoulder silently. he just wanted to disappear. disappear and never come back.

 

"Come on... please don't be sad. You never wanted her to suffer didn't you?" Sonata had to keep trying that he was not alone... because he still had her by his side.