And I'm going to log it here for a bit until it gets better. Lately my dad and brother have been ganging up and going against me. It really started on Sunday. So, I'll start then: Sunday 3/8: Ugh, the weekend. I always hated weekends. Basically my schedule for that day was church, haircut, homework, church. How I hate confirmation class, it's such a pain when everyone thinks you're mentally ******ed. Confirmation class wasn't that bad this week, but when I got outside my dad wasn't there. I called him, and he said he'd leave the house in 10 minutes, so wait I did. My brother and I stood in the parking lot, in the rain, for a half an hour before my dad got there. When I got into the car, I asked nicely, "What were you doing?" He started yelling, "It's not all about YOU, Alexandra. You are always so ****ing selfish, the world does not revolve around you." I couldn't help but growl back, "But it doesn't revolve around YOU, either." My dad laughed and said, "Oh yes it does." He continued to yell and go on about me being selfish, and I had no idea what I had done. So I asked him, and he said, "Everything." Food shopping, texting people in confusion about this...what the hell did I do/say? Tomorrow is Monday...and then until Thursday I can not talk to anyone on the forum. I hope I don't need to that much this week. I would have to make the time last for today. When I went into the part of my apartment, kind of like another room, I opened up my laptop and got on MSN. My brother and dad thought I couldn't hear them, and they started talking about me. I wrote all they said while on MSN. My brother wanted to quickly look something up. He told my dad that he had asked two hours ago, and I still didn't look it up for him, even if I had done so five minutes before he said that. My dad said, "Kick her off, if she says no she's grounded for a month. Hell, I'd like her off forever. If she says no again, she's ****ing out of this house. Go ask her now, I want to see if we will kick her out." So my brother went over and asked me, and I muttered, "I looked it up already." He grunted, "Look it up again." So I did, and my dad asked eagerly as my brother walked back to him, "Did she say no?" Monday 3/9: I woke up to my brother grunting, "Alexandra, get up." Same as every morning. Rolling over and almost falling off the couch, I blinked at him and murmured, "What time is it?" He answered bluntly, "7:10." Sitting up instantly, I started to rush to get ready. By the time I was ready, it was 7:35. My dad was yelling at me, "WE'RE LEAVING WITHOUT YOU. WE'RE GOING TO BE LATE." Now my dad likes me to be a half an hour early to school, I have no idea why. So I rushed around to find my shoes and backpack, which took about two minutes. God, why is it so hard to find things in a one room apartment? Maybe I'm just stupid. School sucked, as usual. I wish I could just be myself...it's as if "Alexandra" is just a lie, and "Xaale" is my real self. Basically, that's the way it is. I don't act myself in school, I act myself here. But that's besides the point. I went straight to Supercuts after school. How I HATE haircuts. They always cut my hair too short, and I was VERY happy with the length of my hair. After they cut it and I got home, I snuck on the computer. I actually was waiting for someone to get online for a science project, but he didn't even get on in the end. When I was about to go to bed, I decided to brush my hair because it was dry. But when I went into the bathroom, I saw that my hair was not close to the length it was at. My hair didn't even reach my shoulders. I started to freak out, and I shared my fears with my brother and dad. They ignored me, and then my brother eventually asked my dad, "Is she ******ed?" My dad said, "Ahaha, yeah." I went to bed with them laughing at me, and I huddled up in the most comforatable position I could on the couch and fell asleep in shame. Tuesday 3/10: I woke up to my brother grunting, "Wake up, Alexandra." It was 7:10 again, I had slept through the alarm that goes off at 6:30. I was getting ready, and I got up to the little bathroom chores. I once again was mortified by my hair, but I kept my mouth shut. I brushed it, brushed my teeth, and then looked for my makeup. I couldn't find it anywhere. I then looked down: my lip gloss was on the floor. Muttering, I picked it up and put it on. Then I looked for my eye shadow, and found it easily. But where was the brush? I KNOW it was there yesterday, I know I put it in the case. I searched for about five minutes, and found it behind a can of deoderant. I wasn't in the mood for that, I know someone must've done that to make me pissed. I got out of the bathroom, and the clock said 7:40. I had 10 minutes before school REALLY started, so I called out, "Guys? I'm ready." No response. I tried again, but no one answered. "CRAP CRAP CRAP," I yelled, rushing to get my books. They left without me! When I got my stuff, I had only five minutes to walk to school. Running and whipping out my phone, I texted my friend and told her what happened. I got down my street, and then saw my dad driving back to the house. I turned and ran after the car, and he stopped and put down the window, saying, "I refuse to drive you. Good luck getting to school on time." Now I was panicking, and was tired of their little games. I started to run, hitting a stupid red light. I slammed my finger into the button, which thankfully quickly changed it to green. I made it into school RIGHT after the bell rang, so I was a little late but it's better than what I thought would be my arrival time. When I got out of school and into the car, my brother was lying about me to my dad. My dad started the whole "selfish" thing again, and I ignored it. My friend texted me saying, "I think you should run away." We had a whole conversation, and her mom was willing to let me live with them. I walked to the beach and sat on a bench for a bit, looking at the water and thinking about the option. I had to think realistically, but in reality it did seem realistic to do so. But I snuck on MSN when I got back, I had to. I got into a convo, but my friend said not to run away. She said she had run away before, and that it wasn't a good idea. I decided that she was right, and I planned to tell my friend in school tomorrow that I wasn't running away. Basically I ignored the taunts and remarks for the rest of the night, and went to bed exhausted from too much homework. Wednesday 3/11: I woke up to my brother grunting, "The clock is ticking." It was 7:00 (Do I ever hear the alarm?) and I got out of bed in a daze and got breakfast. This morning I felt almost drunk...well what I guessed being drunk felt like. I got ready, ignoring my brother and dad telling me to go faster. I got to the car right when they were going to leave without me, which would've made a horrible repeat of the day before. I survived school, and my brother and dad weren't that bad. I'm just afraid it will go back... So anyway, that's up to today from Sunday, all that's happened. I need this to stop, they can go back any time to ganging up against me. I'm so confused and depressed, I really needed to post this. I also want to add to it with each day until it is over, there was still a bit today (3/11) that was bad with them, but not a lot. Mostly just my brother trying to lie to my dad again.
Oh wow. Well, it sounds to me like they want to get rid of you. I'd take your friend up on her offer and run away temporarily, just to see how they would be without you. I know I wouldn't want to live in that kind of environment.
See, but the thing is her mom said that I could live with them only with permission from my dad. ...Yeah, you don't really ask your parent(s) if you can run away, there's a .01% chance of them saying yes.
I think the chances might be better for you, although if you ask him, he'd probably just kick you out right then and there. And from what I've read, he might just keep your stuff as well. I wouldn't put it past him. He'd make up some excuse as to why you couldn't keep it, like he bought it for you so it's his, or some bull like that. I don't know from experience, but it seems like the kind of thing someone like him would do.
Honestly, I'm a coward when it comes to this situation. I'm too afraid to ask my dad, I know then because he'll tell all of my family that I wanted to run away, ect. :/
Do you happen to have a mother? I don't see her mentioned anywhere. What's her stance? (Assuming she lives with you)
Wow. that sucks. but either way, this could also stem from the fact, that your father doesn't really know how to deal with girls. And since your mother is a woman, then perhaps, she could understand you better. But, if they gave him the custody...Then she couldn't be mother of the year. I know how horrible being hurried is...but you're lucky you can get up at 7:00, because they wake me at 5:00, and that's horrible, its so hard getting up. Its understandable why you want to run away, if he's so eager, why doesn't he let you live in peace? Its not like you're a rebellious teen or anything...
My brother just says I'm acting just like my mom, and my dad says it's because I'm being selfish...the same things as before .-. Thursday 3/19 Well not much really happened until today, where I was on the computer and then had to take a shower. I took a liiiiittle too long to turn the computer off, because I was waiting for the internet to get back up and tell people on MSN that I had to go for a bit. I also wanted to know if Haseo was going to be online when I got back. When I turned the computer off and got up, my dad said, "You aren't allowed back on after you get out of the shower." He asked me what I needed to do and I told him I wanted to ask someone (Haseo) if they were going to be online at 9. My dad then asked me what time he normally gets off, and so I told him 9:30 based on the past few days. So then I was grounded until 9:30. My brother was sitting by the computer and playing the DS, not online. I asked if I could get on when it was finally 9:30, rushing because I needed to say goodbye before I couldn't. Thankfully he was still on. I'm going to be gone until Sunday, so yeah. I get on, and then my brother starts talking to my dad about how I kicked him off. I now have a schedule where my brother and I each have half a day on the comp, and I'm probably going to have from 12 am to 12 pm, really limiting me to Saturdays. Now my brother wasn't even on the computer, and this wasn't the result HE wanted, so he's pissed now, too. Also, if he doesn't want to go on during his turn I'm not allowed on .-. Haseo left without saying bye, and now I have a day of crap tomorrow at school. I'm cold and empty, and disgusted at my dad about grounding me specifically so I couldn't talk to Haseo .-. I'm glad I didn't tell him a later time, or everyone wouldn't be online.
Wow. Well, it looks like he's just doing it to piss you off until you get so fed up you either leave, or blow up at him and give him a reason to kick you out. And your brother just sounds like a total spoiled brat.
Oh Xaale xaale xaale D: Reading this made me cry a little D: Im serious, you're such a sweetheart and I utterly despise your dad and your brother. I want nothing more than to fly to NY and just murder them. D< I know you tell us about them all the time when we're on msn, and I always felt I should tell you how to solve it, but I never knew how. :/ You're one of the nicest people I know, you deserve much better than this <3 I meant what I said about running away, you might think it will be a good wake up call for them but in reality its horrible when you don't have the safety of your house anymore :/ <333 Honey, you need to talk to someone... and this time I dont think talking to us online is gonna help. Surely there must be someone you can talk to, or even a helpline for people who have trouble at home, Im not sure which ones they have in the US. It doesnt mean drastic measures will be taken, it just means you can have someone comfort you a little <3 maybe for a few weeks you should try abiding by your dads rules completely, even if they ARE unfair. It might put him in a better mood, you know? Bah, I want to hug you.
This might be a bad thing to ask but...wheres your mom, maybe you could go live with her because obviouslly you aren't being treated fairly.Even if you can't go to your mom ask a relative can you stay with them instead.
Xaales, we should of acutally helped you with this instead of us just lisening. You have to do something, it's breaking you down slowly. And this is a very sick and wrong for what they are doing to you. They torment you for no apprent reason at all. This has got to stop, soon.
Sounds like that's what they're trying to do. I could try following his rules, but it's hard when my brother taunts me xD I know I should do more than just tell you guys, but all the people I've thought of telling my dad has already gotten to and told them all of this "selfish things". Read earlier in the thread :3 I know it has to stop, but right now I've hit a wall. I have no idea who to tell that my dad hasn't gotten to, first. I was planning on telling my aunt, for example, this weekend...but when I was about to it turns out my dad had already told her a bunch of stuff .-. And what I'm also afraid of is my brother finding this thread. He was in the help with life section over the summer and late of last year about a girl, but knowing him he likes to reread old threads. He doesn't know how to check his previous posts/threads via his profile, so he's bound to come through this way instead and read this.
Dont worry, Im sure your brother wont see <3 and aw hell, even if he did, maybe it would open his eyes up a little D:
OMG Reading this makes me pissed! and i don't even know you! XD Maybe you can talk to a school counceler(sorry, i'm tired, i can't spell.) Your brother ticks me off, because that's how my stepbrother acts.. which i see him weekdays. But this isn't my problem, it's yours... try buying something for you brother to keep him distracted? like a toy or something? And how old is he exactly? Because he sounds like a 5 year old spoiled brat who always gets his way... >.> And i'm not sure, but isn't it illegal to kick out a minor when you have custody and they have no where to go? I'll look up on it. But seriously talk to someone, and not just online.
