Smoking Habit Again

Well, i'm a dumb fuck up... Let's just leave most of that there.

SO lately, i've been trying so hard to quit, but every time i can get my hands on one, i'll just smoke it straight to the filter. Last night we had 2 packs, 40 cigarettes in all..

Me and friends smoke 21 yesterday night from 4pm-midnight...
Then the second I wake up, my friend's lighting one up and we're passing them around.

And just before I left, four of us went up this hill behind my friend's house, stood around a pot plant, and smoked a joint.
but i didn't smoke it, because we didn't want my mom seeing me high or anything, but I got a contact buzz from it.
I've never been high, but right now, I feel so fucking sick, everything's so slow mo, and my mom's a little worried about me right now...

so idk what to do. I've tried to quit, but it's so addicting.
I beg no ranting from anyone, i just beg for any sort of help....

 

Cuppykake...you need to not hang out with people like that. They are terrible influences. I'm very dissapointed. I though you had better judgement than that.​

 

lol

i make mistakes all the time.. and i give into peer pressure easily... I'm not perfect, I'll admit... idk why i do it, but it's hooked to me, and i'm hooked to it.

who are you again? xD

 

I used to be Sasumi, another Kentuckian.
Hon, nobody is perfect (god I hope I don't sound like f*cking miley cyrus) but we all have to do the best we can. It's not easy, I know. I walk the path of a doubtingly stable person (mentally). You have to try. Little things. try smoking half cigs instead of whole ones, find some new friends in addition to your current ones to help you pull away slowly. Any little piece is better than letting your life go down the drain.​

 

You are having problems with your breathing so you decide to start smoking again? Where is the sense in that? No seriously please tell me because I can't see it.

Buy chewing gum, it will keep you busy, also take up a hobby like drawing. Do something with your hands because if you keep busy you are less likely to think about the fact you want to smoke.

Really there is no trick to it, the only sure way to quit is when you decide you actually want to. It is a game of will-power and strength.

Enjoy smelling bad and having yellow fingers and teeth. Your breathing problem will just get worse and then you won't be able to get healthier and your weight will go back up. I am sorry if I sound harsh but I sometimes think this site spends too much time babying members when they need to hear the truth.

Only you can help you in this case.

 

I try so hard to not do anything like smoke. My boyfriend would literally sit on me, if he knew i was smoking (so be glad i won't smoke around my boyfriend :') )

It's hard to quit cold turkey i know, but i'm going to try my hardest to stop. I don't want to be like this. I don't want to ruin my life with lung cancer, mouth cancer, or any type of that. I want a healthy life, but right now, I'm too dizzy to do anything, and I'm probably going to sleep it off....

 

Seek professional help. Talk to your parents, school counsellor if you wish to stop.

I agree with Ichinose Kotomi on the friends part, they aren't that great if they put you through it.

 

one reason i love you so much is that you give great advice....

I'm really trying, but... it's hard to explain.
the majority of the time i was at my friend's I chewed gum... I didn't get much of the cig's anyways, because they said i didn't inhale or some stuff like that. But i don't care what they think now. I chose not to smoke pot because it's much worse than a cigarette..

and now i'm thinking that if I can say no to pot, I can say no to cigarettes.

 

Just remember:

Smoking smells horrible.

And I've seen my dad go through tobacco withdrawals in the hospital. I'm sure its something you'd never want to go through. I know I don't want to again.

 

meh
they don't put me through it, but they usually start smoking and ask me and when i say 'no' they're like "It's okay, just smoke,you won't get in trouble" because her parents will let her friends smoke, but not their own daughter

 

you have a good boyfriend.

As Catch the Rain said, try chewing on gum and keeping your hands busy. My mom sucks on dum-dum pops on planes to keep her mouth at bay, and knitting or crocheting is a good way to keep hands busy. If you want I could make a vid of some easy finger-knitting and crocheting (it's so easy a caveman could do it) to help ;3​

 

It's not as simple as that; smoking, like most drugs, substitutes chemicals that are naturally occurring and bind to receptors in the brain with chemicals that are in the drug that bind in their place, usually including pleasure and pain. They last longer and have more intense results, resulting in the 'high' feeling. Problem is, they stay bound to the receptors for too long, and at the same time have bad side effects, not including the ones that occur for being bound for too long. Aside from tolerance, the side effects include cravings for more, certain loss of motor functions, and more. And that's only the more immediate symptoms.

 

I'd reall appreciate that actually. It sounds like something i like to do...
I love to braid hair, twist knots, and play with strings haha

that might be something easy for me to do to keep my mind off cigarettes

 

just keep trying. It will take many attempts before you can get it right. for most people it takes at least 7.

 

I'll make a vid tomorrow when I get back to my mom's where there's a camera. Hang on sister!​

 

i agree. I know i am a 'tool'. But i really don't care what i am to others.

lol
i'll be hanging on (:
i left my pack up my friend's hosue, and i don't take my momma's cigs lol

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EDIT!!!

also, when you're high... you feel hungry all the time o_O

 

maybe you should lay off the ho-hos and you won't think about inhaling smoke into your lungs

think about it

 

Add the fact that it's expensive and that many guys would rather French kiss a bullfrog than to kiss a smoker and you should have all the motivation you need to collect some willpower and stop.

And here's where you're incredibly wrong. Of course you should care about what you are to others. Be a tool, fine, but be a tool to the right people. Be a constructive tool instead of one that drowns itself in the river along with the other lemmings.

 

Tsk, tsk, tsk. No need to call yourself a dumb **** up. That's the worst thing you could do, you'll end being really depressed if your not already. Don't hang around with those sorts of people. I know its hard to stay away from your friends, but every time they do go to a joint, try to overcome the temptation to join them. Yes, it may be hard at first. Gradually you can over come it. You won't be able to quit just like that, slowly, slowly you'll make a recovery, you have my support xD. This may sound cocky or cheesy, but just believe you can, sooner or later you'll realise that smoking is just a really bad habit. I'm sure you'll be okay, sooner or later xD.

EDIT: Somethings you could do everytime your high or want to smoke: GO AND EAT [ something healthy of course - lol ], go read a book, come on the computer, do whatever it is you have to do to escape the desire of smoking a ciggarette. Go outside if its a sunny day, go for a walk, try riding a bike [ if you have one ], there are lots of things you can do to keep your mind busy, even if its like organising the family photo album, or cleaning your room. Trust me, you'll feel a lot better when you don't smoke anymore.

 

lol
i see what you're getting at, but what i mean about 'not caring what i am to others' is that i don't care what others think of me.. I can be who i want and no one can tell me who to be (in other words its a good thing to me)

the thing is, i don't smoke pot ._. i was just around them and got a little contact buzz from the smoke...